TOWIE couple Sophie Kasaei and Jordan Brook have been refreshingly honest about the trials and tribulations of trying to conceive their first child.Now Sophie has also revealed the early days of motherhood were so challenging, she had her bags packed and was ready to leave Jordan and move back to Newcastle.The TV couple, who have been together since 2022, welcomed their first child, Brody, earlier this summer, following an incredibly challenging two-year fertility journey.Sitting down with the Daily Mail to discuss their new show, Jordan & Sophie: A TOWIE Baby, which will air on ITV this month, the couple reflected on their traumatic experience.During their struggles to conceive, Sophie discovered she had chronic endometriosis and explored various treatment options including IVF.She researched fertility clinics, underwent surgeries such as a ‘fallopian tube-flushing treatment’ and antibiotic therapy, and even travelled to Greece for immunisation therapy. The couple also experienced a chemical pregnancy – an early pregnancy loss that typically occurs shortly after an embryo implantation.And on top of all of that, while Sophie was pregnant, Jordan suffered a serious battle with meningitis, leaving her fearing she could be facing motherhood alone.‘It was so hard on us, and there was a time the bags were packed, and Sophie was going to go back to Newcastle,’ Jordan told me. Sophie Kasaei and Jordan Brook have been honest about the trials and tribulations of trying to conceive their first child in their new ITV show, Jordan & Sophie: A TOWIE Baby The TOWIE couple, who have been together since 2022, welcomed their first child, Brody, earlier this summer‘We were clashing heads a lot. And it’s not until you sit back and converse, no heat of the moment, and you say; “We’re actually both trying to achieve the same thing. We’re on the same team.”’The difficulties of sharing such personal experiences with their followers was also scary for the couple.Sophie, who has more than two million followers on social media, admitted that being so open online comes with its own problems, describing social media as ‘a dark place’.‘I don’t post everything like I used to,’ she explained.‘I am very conscious of what I post because there are people who have an opinion on everything I do as a mother.‘In one way I can help people, by speaking about our struggles or my postpartum hair loss or the pressure to bounce back and look a certain way.‘But then there is the other side where people just need to be kinder.’Jordan added that some of their harshest criticism online has come from other parents.‘It’s other mums hammering her to the ground,’ he said.‘People write things sometimes behind these keyboards, and I read the comments that are so disgusting about my child and my partner. And when I click on the profiles, their profile pictures are them with their kids.‘Some of the messages we have got about our son are seriously worrying.’Sophie, who appeared on Geordie Shore for multiple stints over 14 years, met Jordan at a charity event, with the pair going public with their romance in 2022.She started on TOWIE in 2023, joining Jordan who had been part of the show since 2017.Still close friends with Geordie Shore favourites Charlotte Crosby and Holly Hagan, Sophie revealed she turned to the girls for support throughout her fertility journey.‘I’ve spoken to the Geordie girls a lot through our struggles,’ she said.‘And they told me, “Sof, the love you have for your child is like love you’ve never felt.”‘But I get it. I love Jordan and I love my friends and family, but it’s a completely different love.‘The love I have for my boy is like my heart. He’s just got my full heart, just everything.’Jordan, who continues to work as a barber alongside his TV career, endured a severe and life-threatening battle with viral meningitis and encephalitis earlier this year, compounding the couple’s troubles.He spent 22 days in Basildon Hospital receiving round-the-clock antiviral treatment, pain management, seizure monitoring and physiotherapy. At the height of his illness, swelling left him temporarily unable to speak or walk.The experience, he says, has put life into perspective and strengthened his determination to encourage more men to speak openly about their emotions and worries.‘It’s sort of become my life’s work, to help people,’ Jordan told me.‘I had a man I knew not that long ago who I used to play Sunday football against. I got a very sad message from one of his friends that he was 31 and took his own life.‘The friend asked me to play in the charity football match for him. But my health still doesn’t allow me to play football yet, but I was there posting and helping any way I could.’ During their struggles to conceive, Sophie discovered she had chronic endometriosis and explored various treatment options, including IVFJordan continued: ‘I spend most of my days behind my barber chair, and my long-term clients have been with me for over 16 years.‘I’ve seen them at their highs and their lows – it becomes a sort of therapy catch-up, you know? They come in and we just talk.‘I get texts every day like; “Mate, it was really nice to talk to you today. Thank you”.‘And if I can do that for one person, if you can help one person, I’m doing something right.’So, what’s next for the couple? According to Sophie they want to get married, while Jordan is looking forward to continuing his TOWIE journey.‘Filming for TOWIE is so easy, because it’s just being with your mates. And being able to watch our story back and now with Brody is really special,’ Jordan said.‘It’s become more like a soap now, it’s on all the time. When I came onto TOWIE, I was 21 years old. I’m now 31 with a kid. And people that have watched all of that.’‘And of course a proposal,’ Sophie teased.‘Yes and of course, we want to get married,’ Jordan agreed.The two-part special, titled Jordan & Sophie: A TOWIE Baby, will air on November 8 and 9, documenting the highs and lows of the couple’s journey into parenthood.