For Perez Hilton, the grueling road to recovery in the wake of his horror livestream will persist long after his physical wounds have healed.Nearly a month into his hospitalization in Florida, friends have now told the Daily Mail that the 48-year-old celebrity gossip blogger has no idea what state he’s in and, worse, what year it is.According to a source close to Hilton, it seems that he has ‘lost a decade’ and believes it is the year 2016.What’s more, Hilton has been begging friends to bring singer Katy Perry to his bedside, insisting that the pair are ‘best friends’ because he ‘made her into a star’ and that she ‘would be nowhere without him,’ the source said.But Hilton and Perry, 41, who were once close publicly while he championed her early career, have barely spoken in years, the source claimed, making his plea all the more heartbreaking. ‘He is not all there,’ the source added. Daily Mail insiders say Perez Hilton remains in a troubling mental state following his livestream ordeal and believes it is 2016; Above, Hilton during his March 2026 hospital stay for sepsis An insider said Hilton has been asking friends to bring Katy Perry to his bedside, insisting that the pair are ‘best friends’ because he ‘made her into a star’ and that she ‘would be nowhere without him’; Above, Perry and Hilton in 2010Those closest to Hilton – whose memory of his livestream last month was already said to be spotty – are now fearing the worst. A family friend of more than 20 years told the Daily Mail that even a short phone call shows Hilton is ‘still not well at all.’On August 4, Hilton (real name is Mario Armando Lavandeira Jr) took to TikTok to record a truly shocking live video. Horrified fans watched him, naked and covered in blood, repeatedly harm himself with a large butcher’s knife. The footage was live for about 15 minutes before the social media site stopped the feed. Police arrived soon after.Hilton was hospitalized under Florida’s Baker Act, which allows for the temporary and involuntary detention of individuals in mental crisis. He has not since had access to his mobile phone or the Internet. Any calls with the outside world have been made on the hospital’s landline.The family friend described the gossip blogger as prone to ‘rambling’ and drifting off mid-conversation. While Hilton is said to have moments of clarity, he is also described as ‘all over the place.”One minute he’s thinking about moving forward and making plans for when he’s back at work,’ the friend said. ‘The next minute he’s talking about walking away altogether.’Even from his hospital bed, Hilton is said to be fixated on the future of the eponymous celebrity news site that shot him to internet infamy in the mid-2000s and still pays the bills, despite having markedly fallen off in terms of popularity.’He asked how the site is doing. He asked how people are talking about him – what they’re saying,’ the friend said. ‘His family has assured him that everything is OK, but he’s not believing it.’Before this crisis, Hilton was said to be scrambling for work beyond his blog, with reality TV pitches reportedly fizzling out before getting off the ground. While his site traffic surged after his shocking livestream, such grisly curiosity was fleeting, with a source saying visitors quickly tailed off. His small team have since resumed posting celebrity news to the site, but it remains unclear whether readers will return in force, or if Hilton will ever be well enough to reclaim the reins. The source claimed Hilton and Perry, who were once publicly close while he championed her early career, have barely spoken in years – making the plea all the more heartbreaking; Above, in 2008 Before the crisis, Hilton – real name Mario Armando Lavandeira Jr – was said to be scrambling for work beyond his blogFor now, the man who built a successful career online is now unable to work and cut off from both his phone and the internet while under medical supervision, the family friend said.’He can’t do any work at the moment. His family is handling all of his affairs,’ a source explained. ‘His mother and sister are making sure he is getting the best care. They are hopeful.’Hilton is also covered in medical gauze after doctors stitched up dozens of cuts from the incident, sources said, and he also has limited mobility due to broken bones said to be caused by falling on the night of the livestream.His three children – Mario, 13, Mia, 11, and Mayte, eight – were at the home when the incident began. It’s unclear what the children may have seen before they were rushed outside by his sister Barbara, who was also home, but they have not visited their father since. A source close to the family said Hilton’s injuries are still too distressing for young children to see.A Miami judge granted Hilton supervised visitation from hospital while his mother, Teresita, has temporary custody. But he must first obtain psychiatric clearance, and any contact must be supervised by an approved family member or therapist.’He’s not mentally in a place where he can really see the kids, and he is feeling pretty alone right now,’ a source said.Meanwhile, sources previously told the Daily Mail that Hilton had not received a single card, bouquet of flowers or even a text from any celebrities in his circle.’All the ones he wanted to reach out, all the celebrities who he has mended fences with, all the ones who said he’s their friend. None of them are doing anything,’ an insider said. ‘He’s not mentally in a place where he can really see the kids, and he is feeling pretty alone right now,’ the source explained; Above, Hilton with Mario, Mia, and Mayte in 2022Now, in the moments when Hilton’s confusion lifts, the family friend said, the full scale of his new reality is beginning to hit home. ‘He feels very isolated at the moment, very alone,’ the friend said. ‘He’s being really hard on himself, regretting all these things that he has done and where life is now. He’s despondent. He’s nowhere near ready to get out. He’s got a very, very long way to go.’But Hilton needs something to look forward to once he has recovered – and being a father could give him a reason to keep going.’He can move forward by being a dad, but let’s be real…it will be a co-parenting thing with his family from here,’ the friend said.He also must focus on his health, while returning to work remains ‘a distant thing.”He says he wants people to learn from him,’ the friend said. ‘He can do that best by recovering mentally and physically. He understands that.’