Megan McKenna has reflected on her infamous drunken Diary Room meltdown on Celebrity Big Brother, recalling how show bosses ‘fed and fed’ her alcohol.The TV personality, 34, was just 22 years old when she walked into the famous abode in January 2016, fresh from her stint on MTV’s Ex On The Beach months earlier.And while she has made a name for herself with her TV stints, in a new interview on Fearne Cotton’s Happy Place podcast, Megan admitted that reality TV has left her with PTSD and paranoia as she looked back on her rise to fame.Megan was the fourth celebrity to be evicted from the then-Channel 5 series and was most notably known for her breakdown in the Diary Room where she launched into an expletive-laden rant over EastEnders star John Partridge and US TV personality Tiffany Pollard following an earlier row.She became so distressed that security were called in to calm her down, with Megan subsequently given a formal warning by Big Brother. Her Diary Room behaviour later triggered hundreds of viewer complaints to broadcasting watchdog Ofcom. Discussing her stint on the show, Megan remarked: ‘I went on to Big Brother obviously wanting to show people that, you know, I am nice and I’m not this just crazy persona of, oh, she’s heartbroken and losing her head all the time, but obviously I went on Big Brother and back in the day, they did feed and feed and feed you alcohol. Megan McKenna has reflected on her infamous drunken Diary Room meltdown on Celebrity Big Brother, recalling how show bosses ‘fed and fed’ her alcohol Megan was most notably known for her breakdown in the Diary Room [pictured] where she launched into an expletive-laden rant over EastEnders star John Partridge and US TV personality Tiffany Pollard following an earlier row’You know, I was 22 again, very drunk and made a tit of myself again!’Host Fearne, 45, then suggested that reality TV in those days was a ‘very different beast’ to current shows, with modern programmes having ‘more governance and control’ than they did in the past, likening older shows to ‘the wild west’. Looking back on her experience, Megan continued: ‘I wouldn’t change anything because I’m really grateful and I loved everybody that I worked with on the shows like the producers, the cameramen. I got on with them all.’So, it’s funny because obviously when I watch it back, anybody that’s watching it will be like, “Oh, I bet she’s a nightmare”. But I genuinely really got on with everyone. Like, it was just a lot of things are ramped up. Everything’s heightened when you’re in them houses for like a month and everyone like, we’re all here, you know? We’re doing a show. It’s I would like to think no one takes anything too much to heart.’Following several attempts to break into the music industry, Megan found her career pivoting to reality TV when she was invited to audition for MTV’s Ex On the Beach in 2015, fresh from the heartbreak of a failed long-term relationship. Megan recalled that despite being ‘really drunk’ during her audition at a nightclub, show bosses still signed her up, with her soon jetting off to Mexico to film.She reflected on feeling ‘on edge’ the entire time and struggling to cope with her heartbreak at coming face-to-face with a girl that had a fling with her ex.Megan told that after her appearance, she then ‘went on every other reality show you could think of. It was like a spiral of just craziness,’ with her most prominent reality show being her now infamous Celebrity Big Brother stint. She later made her debut on TOWIE in March 2016, just months after being evicted from the Big Brother house. In a new interview on Fearne Cotton’s Happy Place podcast, Megan admitted that reality TV has left her with PTSD and paranoia as she looked back on her rise to fame ‘I went on to Big Brother obviously wanting to show people that, you know, I am nice and I’m not this just crazy persona of, oh, she’s heartbroken and losing her head all the time, but obviously I went on Big Brother and back in the day, they did feed and feed and feed you alcohol. The mum-of-one then went on to open up on the psychological toll of reality TV as she recalled how the constant filming and exposure left her with paranoia and suffering with symptoms she compares to PTSD’She went on: ‘It just just kind of blew up from there really… Big Brother, TOWIE and then I did my own show and then I did, I would say the more nicer shows like MasterChef, some really nice wholesome shows and then finally I was able to kind of show just me like normal Megan.’Megan went on to reflect on how her portrayals on reality TV left her with the stigma of ‘mental Megan’, recalling how she even appeared in an advert wearing a straight jacket.But while at the time she leaned into it as it gave her commercial success, she eventually got sick of people commenting on her without knowing her ‘real feelings’ behind the camera.The mum-of-one then went on to open up on the psychological toll of reality TV as she recalled how the constant filming and exposure left her with paranoia and suffering with symptoms she compares to PTSD.As she discussed how the end of her time on TOWIE ‘really hit me emotionally’, and left her ‘really paranoid,’ Megan said: ‘My friends we joke about it now but it is a real thing. Like I always say like I’m whispering about something. They’re like why are you whispering? I’m like I don’t know. It’s I swear I’m like it’s PTSD.’We laugh because it’s funny because at the end of the day like when you think about it it’s not a normal situation is it?’You’ve got cameras under everywhere and on you and then your conversation that you think is private, isn’t. You know what I mean? And it’s on an episode and you’re like, “Oh, wow. I can’t believe I said that”.’She went on: ‘I swear it really really leads [create paranoia] not just on TOWIE, like all the other shows. You have to be really careful as well like what you say and your opinions and you know it’s all depends on how much you want out on a show I suppose. ‘But I wear my heart on my sleeve and I can’t hide my emotions. So no matter if I was not answering a question, it was a show on my face.’