Kyle Sandilands has made a deeply concerning admission about his mental health amid the bitter breakdown of his friendship with longtime co-host Jackie ‘O’ Henderson.Speaking on his Kyle Sandilands Live show this week, the 55-year-old radio veteran said he had been battling depression and thoughts of death.’I knew last night when I was laying in bed where I thought I’d rather die,’ he said, before clarifying: ‘But not kill myself, just die naturally.’Sandilands stressed that he is not having suicidal thoughts, but that the sadness he had been experiencing was becoming overwhelming. ‘The sadness that I’ve had for the last two days, it’s just unbearable, and I just can’t get rid of it,’ he said.Sandilands said the experience had given him a new understanding of what severe emotional pain could feel like. Kyle Sandilands has made a deeply concerning admission about his mental health amid the bitter breakdown of his friendship with longtime co-host Jackie ‘O’ Henderson He later revealed just how difficult it had become for him to maintain his usual larger-than-life persona at work.The normally outspoken radio host even admitted he’d almost broken down in tears after arriving at the studio that morning. ‘I sat in the boardroom in the dark for an hour. I was going to cry,’ he said, with tears welling in his eyes. The emotional moment marked a departure from the tough persona Sandilands has cultivated throughout his decades in radio. ‘It’s hard to come in here – and you know we’ve got all the best of intentions to have fun and everything – but today was the first day it was very difficult,’ he said.Sandilands said the intensity of his emotions had left him feeling almost paralysed.He compared the feeling to carrying around a ‘heavy cloak’, saying it was something he had been unable to simply shake off.Sandilands, however, revealed he had been reluctant to seek professional help, explaining that his past experiences had left him sceptical about psychologists. Speaking on his Kyle Sandilands Live show this week, the 55-year-old radio veteran said he’d been battling depression and thoughts of death. Sandilands stressed that he is not having suicidal thoughts, but that the sadness he had been experiencing was become overwhelming Elsewhere in the episode, Sandilands made clear that despite the bitter fallout, his feelings towards Henderson had not changed. Rather than feeling relieved when he heard information about her situation, he said it only made him worry about whether she was okay’Just because I feel sad doesn’t mean I’ve got to run off to the f***ing doctor,’ he said.Despite the severity of what he had described, Sandilands repeatedly insisted he was not experiencing dangerous thoughts about himself.’This is not me thinking dangerous thoughts about myself,’ he said, adding: ‘I’m not there.’ Instead, he said he believed time would ultimately help him recover.Elsewhere in the episode, Sandilands made clear that despite the bitter fallout, his feelings towards Henderson had not changed.Rather than feeling relieved when he heard information about her situation, he said it only made him worry about whether she was okay.’What’s going on?’ he said.’Is she alright? Has she got the right people around her? Is she safe? I don’t know, it’s terrible.’ And despite everything that has happened between them, Sandilands said his love for his former radio partner remained unconditionalJoin the discussionHow should we support friends or colleagues struggling with depression, especially after a falling out?What’s your view?And despite everything that has happened between them, Sandilands said his love for his former radio partner remained unconditional.’I will love her unconditionally, forever, even if I never speak to her again. But it is very, very hurtful,’ he said.If you or anyone you know needs immediate support, contact Lifeline on 13 11 14 or via lifeline.org.au. In an emergency, call 000.